catatan malam hari

this day i start to read again after been a long time..i have so much idea in my mind but as usual i can't write it down..just stuck in my deeply mind.,thanks to "soul to squeeze" to give me a peaceful in my mind..i wanna start but i can't walk..when the way looks like culdesac..it's beautiful when u feel unusual feeling in your heart, i don't care whether it can be hurt or not..but, so far this feeling is strange..what should i call?..love?..no?..fu*ck with love..i don't wanna be trapped anymore..it's absurd, when u don't want to accept this..as though u wanna runaway..because I'll know the end is..just waste my time, but i like it..just bother my mind but it's okay..i can feel it..well, time for the Beatles..twist and shout guy!..to tell the truth, i don't wanna rock and roll tonight, but i dont wanna slave myself with all this blind feelin'..at least, it can be make me have more spirit than before..